Things have been really stressful as far as me not talking to my family and with Christmas on Sunday, I spent thanksgiving alone for the first time ever and I don’t know what is going on with Christmas. I have reached out to my mom a couple of times and she’s text back but my step father does not want to talk to me at all and my mom is backing him. I have been trying to keep busy but have been pretty depressed and haven’t felt like blogging or being around anyone period.

A couple of days ago I found a desk that someone was throwing out while I was taking my trash out and my friend N and I somehow got it upstairs to my apartment.

 – It was free and I needed a desk for my computer.


When I first moved in here I moved in with a bed, my laptop, a tv and my clothes and that was it. The last couple of months someone gave me a coffeemaker, a microwave and stand & a toaster for free – different people.

I ordered a mousepad from amazon today, I had a gift card balance so I used it up on a mousepad but it won’t be here until after the new year.  I am hoping things will get better after the new year.

Good Morning

Sorry that I haven’t been communicating with you all lately, I have been really depressed because of the holidays as my family and I aren’t speaking and it looks like D is once again out of the picture. N helped me a lot the other day, she went and bought me some food and has been a listening ear for me. I haven’t been talking to S, she’s been acting different since her boyfriend has been home. I called my friend C last night and talked to her for awhile, we made plans to spend new years eve weekend together and she is coming to my house for the weekend.

She is staying with her dad until she find a apartment and we have been friends for about four years but haven’t hung out in awhile. We are supposed to go downtown on new years eve, they have a free concert/ball drop thing every year and we went 2012/2013 and it as a lot of fun. I want to get on some income based listings for some apartments, I live in a very small studio apartment and although everything is included in my rent it is still 600 a month which is most of my disability check and I want to find something bigger that is based on my income.

I need to get back into counseling and I want to find a new doctors office but I can’t do anything until January when I am able to buy a bus pass. I hate where I go to the doctors now and I want to try to get back into elmwood health center where I used to go, I was kicked out for to many missed appointments. I just called elmwood health center and they won’t take me back but I found another doctors office and I made an appointment for February 20th.

I’m not doing much of anything this weekend, N told me she may be able to get a ride to the grocery store to get me a couple of things…I made her a list but she hasn’t text me back yet. We are under a snow storm warning, but so far Buffalo hasn’t gotten any snow, the south towns got a ton…I heard.