In another life

I don’t talk about my son on here for the simple fact that I don’t want to answer questions about why I don’t have him and why I haven’t seen him, ect ect ect. The other reason is that it’s none of anyone’s business¬†why my son is not with me, that is between me & his father.

However my son is getting older now, He will be 14 next month and as time continues to pass by I wish I would have done things differently. I received a instant message from his father on facebook last night with pictures and a couple of videos from a recent visit he had with him.

When I chose to sign my rights away I did so for him and no one else, my mom ¬†completely erased the fact that I raised him by myself for four years and say’s she only has 4 grandkids (my brothers kids) when people ask and it feels like a slap in the face.

I chose the family I wanted to adopt my son before I signed my rights away and on the day the foster mother took me to see him (he was 7 then) and I haven’t seen him in person since, the adoption ended up falling through and a new family adopted him in 2011. I have seen pictures and videos but besides that I don’t have any contact.