Good Morning

I am just getting over a cold combined with a stomach bug which I unfortunately dealt with on my birthday which left me in bed most of the day and the whole weekend. Besides that my birthday was okay, I spoke to S and both my mom & brother texted me.

There has been a bit of drama, N and I are not friends anymore and S now knows that she has been bad mouthing her and her husband to others besides myself and D. S confronted her the day after my birthday and when I signed on to FB to reply to birthday comments, I noticed that N deleted me. I could honestly care less, the women is a middle school child stuck in a grown woman’s body.

I took the metro out to the reservation yesterday and there was some drunk guy on the bus, He was actually drinking on the bus the way there and annoying the hell out of me. S’s husband was on the bus with me and ended up telling drunk man to leave me alone as I was trying to read to pass the time and he wouldn’t shut up. Then on the way back drunk man pissed the bus driver off and she tried to kick him off the bus when we made it back to the city. He refused and I didn’t want to miss my bus home, so I (as well as a group of others) got off the bus and walked to get our connecting buses. I’m sure he’s sitting in county right now, it’s not a smart move to piss a bus driver off.

I met with my new case manager the other day and she is supposed to stop by today so I can sign some paperwork for a place that does income based apartments. When I told her how much I am paying for this room plus bathroom they call a apartment her jaw hit the floor. The apartment place’s waiting list’s are really long 3 to 5 years long which is why I haven’t considered them before but she told me that they put applicants that come through their agency at the top of the list I told her I would fill the paperwork out.

When I paid my rent yesterday I explained to the office manager that I was actively looking for a new place and was told that I needed to give 60 days notice. She told me to put my notice in and if I don’t find something by the end of July she will push the notice back, so I put it in. I do not want to be here another winter, that’s when the rodents find refuge inside the building and I am not dealing with that. My case manager also said she is going to get me some rat poison and was appalled when I told her the owner knows about the problem and just doesn’t care.

Besides going to the grocery store, I don’t have any plans outside the house. My plans are to get through my main email and to do a possible product review via the blog today. Maybe write a chapter or two to one of the novels I have going.

I know what you want

Last night I got a text from someone I hadn’t spoken to since before new years eve, the girl I had plans with to hang with on that day that canceled on me. She started off ranting to me about how she needed to find a new place to live, now months ago before I went through the bullshit I went through with the last friend that needed a place to stay from me and ended up doing all kinds of drugs in my house and stealing from me. This “friend” wanted to come stay with me and I said No.

I don’t like when “friends” just pop up when they need something from me, I told this girl to go and find her own way like I did three years ago. Yes, I did crash with some friends, then I went to a motel and I got my own. It may have been with roommates, but I was paying my own way and eventually I got my own apartment (not the way I would have chosen for myself) but I did.

I’m not dumb, I know where she was going with her text at midnight last night…..not going to happen, I told her there were openings in my building but she didn’t want to move here and I told her why. My apartment is not a a homeless shelter, she’ll have to struggle just as I did. Call me a bitch, whatever I stand by that I am a bitch when I feel like I am being used for something.

Bored with life & with drama

I am bored with this blog, the site in general and my life to be frank, which is why I haven’t been blogging and why my site hasn’t any visitors (besides from fanlisting owners who come to check that I’ve linked back) and I want to do something about that. I am planning a complete overhall, hopefully to be completed by mid-month or this weekend (depending on if I can’t sleep and have enough coffee in me).

I have reached a point in my life where I am considering stopping communication with certain female people I call friends, I have never had so much drama in my life (in that department anyways) before I moved into this hell hole that they call an apartment building.

The building itself is not worth what the landlord charges for it, they don’t allow pets but that’s okay because the building comes with mice….yes for 600+ you too can have a small studio with everything included + mice. The landlord doesn’t care and will do nothing besides providing traps that don’t catch shit. Besides that I have been here a little over a year and seven people have died since I moved in, I believe the grim reaper is taking up residence here.

Now back to drama, there is this girl that moved in over the summer R and I have a friend N who is hates this girl on the sole fact of …… her man was in R’s face, I don’t have a problem with R at all and I think she is a very nice girl who has been nothing but kind to me. N comes to my apartment every morning and wants to unload drama (talk shit) about R and a mutual friend of ours S and I don’t like drama….I have very few female friends because of this.

I have held my tongue for long enough and next time N mentions R or S in anything drama like I am going to snap.

Needed to vent, Thanks.

Good Morning

Sorry that I haven’t been communicating with you all lately, I have been really depressed because of the holidays as my family and I aren’t speaking and it looks like D is once again out of the picture. N helped me a lot the other day, she went and bought me some food and has been a listening ear for me. I haven’t been talking to S, she’s been acting different since her boyfriend has been home. I called my friend C last night and talked to her for awhile, we made plans to spend new years eve weekend together and she is coming to my house for the weekend.

She is staying with her dad until she find a apartment and we have been friends for about four years but haven’t hung out in awhile. We are supposed to go downtown on new years eve, they have a free concert/ball drop thing every year and we went 2012/2013 and it as a lot of fun. I want to get on some income based listings for some apartments, I live in a very small studio apartment and although everything is included in my rent it is still 600 a month which is most of my disability check and I want to find something bigger that is based on my income.

I need to get back into counseling and I want to find a new doctors office but I can’t do anything until January when I am able to buy a bus pass. I hate where I go to the doctors now and I want to try to get back into elmwood health center where I used to go, I was kicked out for to many missed appointments. I just called elmwood health center and they won’t take me back but I found another doctors office and I made an appointment for February 20th.

I’m not doing much of anything this weekend, N told me she may be able to get a ride to the grocery store to get me a couple of things…I made her a list but she hasn’t text me back yet. We are under a snow storm warning, but so far Buffalo hasn’t gotten any snow, the south towns got a ton…I heard.