Another sleepless night

I guess tonight will be another sleepless night, it’s only 1:03am but I can feel it. For now the wifi connection is holding steady (if my rent wasn’t so expensive I’d have my own private wifi) even though a couple of hours ago it kept dropping and I was yelling, pissed. I saw there was a hit and run around the area that D lives in (around ten pm), so I sent him a text making sure he was okay and He just called me back (about a half hour ago). I am currently reading blogs (something I rarely do) and listening to music on Pandora.

My migraine is still holding strong, I wanted to read for a while (the first book I am doing for my reading challenge) from my pounding head is making it impossible to read via the kindle app on my phone.  I am getting a lot of visitors from Buffalo and it is making me kind of nervous that I know these people, say something…comment.

I am getting tired of the black/red combo, going to have to change that soon…maybe something more spring/summer like.

My head hurts

I generally try not to drink coffee late at night but I have had this super bad migraine since yesterday and it won’t go away, I tried to sleep and went to bed with it, then I woke up with it. Everything is bothering me, the light, the noise from the fan, the noise of the TV, the heat coming from the radiator. I tried to eat, not working. I tried taking a hot shower, not working so I give up. Maybe some hot coffee will break it enough so I can get some sleep. and I guess I will sleep with my cold rice pack tonight, again.

Bored with life & with drama

I am bored with this blog, the site in general and my life to be frank, which is why I haven’t been blogging and why my site hasn’t any visitors (besides from fanlisting owners who come to check that I’ve linked back) and I want to do something about that. I am planning a complete overhall, hopefully to be completed by mid-month or this weekend (depending on if I can’t sleep and have enough coffee in me).

I have reached a point in my life where I am considering stopping communication with certain female people I call friends, I have never had so much drama in my life (in that department anyways) before I moved into this hell hole that they call an apartment building.

The building itself is not worth what the landlord charges for it, they don’t allow pets but that’s okay because the building comes with mice….yes for 600+ you too can have a small studio with everything included + mice. The landlord doesn’t care and will do nothing besides providing traps that don’t catch shit. Besides that I have been here a little over a year and seven people have died since I moved in, I believe the grim reaper is taking up residence here.

Now back to drama, there is this girl that moved in over the summer R and I have a friend N who is hates this girl on the sole fact of …… her man was in R’s face, I don’t have a problem with R at all and I think she is a very nice girl who has been nothing but kind to me. N comes to my apartment every morning and wants to unload drama (talk shit) about R and a mutual friend of ours S and I don’t like drama….I have very few female friends because of this.

I have held my tongue for long enough and next time N mentions R or S in anything drama like I am going to snap.

Needed to vent, Thanks.

Good Morning

Sorry that I haven’t been communicating with you all lately, I have been really depressed because of the holidays as my family and I aren’t speaking and it looks like De is once again out of the picture. Nancy helped me a lot the other day, she went and bought me some food and has been a listening ear for me. I haven’t been talking to Stacey, she’s been acting different since her boyfriend has been home. I called my friend Charity last night and talked to her for awhile, we made plans to spend new years eve weekend together and she is coming to my house for the weekend.

She is staying with her dad until she find a apartment and we have been friends for about four years but haven’t hung out in awhile. We are supposed to go downtown on new years eve, they have a free concert/ball drop thing every year and we went 2012/2013 and it as a lot of fun. I want to get on some income based listings for some apartments, I live in a very small studio apartment and although everything is included in my rent it is still 600 a month which is most of my disability check and I want to find something bigger that is based on my income.

I need to get back into counseling and I want to find a new doctors office but I can’t do anything until January when I am able to buy a bus pass. I hate where I go to the doctors now and I want to try to get back into elmwood health center where I used to go, I was kicked out for to many missed appointments. I just called elmwood health center and they won’t take me back but I found another doctors office and I made an appointment for February 20th.

I’m not doing much of anything this weekend, Nancy told me she may be able to get a ride to the grocery store to get me a couple of things…I made her a list but she hasn’t text me back yet. We are under a snow storm warning, but so far Buffalo hasn’t gotten any snow, the south towns got a ton…I heard.