March 20th: Random facts monday

  1. I think there is something wrong with people who don’t drink coffee
  2. I like many different genres of music, I don’t like to limit myself
  3. My favorite band has always been Linkin Park, but I have other favorites as well
  4. My favorite movie has changed over the years
  5. I can’t name one favorite book, I have many favorites
  6. I can read more then one book at once, D, thinks I am crazy
  7. My favorite tv show right now is The Originals, which is subject to change
  8. I hate when people ask how tall I am but I still will answer
  9. People annoy me sometimes, I try to stay by myself during these times
  10. I have several emails, which I use for different things

I know what you want

Last night I got a text from someone I hadn’t spoken to since before new years eve, the girl I had plans with to hang with on that day that canceled on me. She started off ranting to me about how she needed to find a new place to live, now months ago before I went through the bullshit I went through with the last friend that needed a place to stay from me and ended up doing all kinds of drugs in my house and stealing from me. This “friend” wanted to come stay with me and I said No.

I don’t like when “friends” just pop up when they need something from me, I told this girl to go and find her own way like I did three years ago. Yes, I did crash with some friends, then I went to a motel and I got my own. It may have been with roommates, but I was paying my own way and eventually I got my own apartment (not the way I would have chosen for myself) but I did.

I’m not dumb, I know where she was going with her text at midnight last night…..not going to happen, I told her there were openings in my building but she didn’t want to move here and I told her why. My apartment is not a a homeless shelter, she’ll have to struggle just as I did. Call me a bitch, whatever I stand by that I am a bitch when I feel like I am being used for something.

Making money online ; Part 2


Survey site that pays in points, if you don’t qualify they still give you 5 points and after every survey you have a chance to play their poll predictor which gives you a chance to win prizes. I have cashed out with them once via amazon, they offer other gift cards as well as paypal.



This site is different it’s not really just surveys, it is more like a community with polls, topics, surveys and discussion. They pay in points (different things offer different points) and the pay via amazon gift cards. I have cashed out with this company twice (as of today) and its a fun place to expression your own personal opinions.


Mobile Performance Meter: app in google play store

The device runs in the background on your phone and pays 5 points a day, offers many different ways to cash out (mostly gift cards).


This is my life

Apparently in the last week or so, annoying neighbor number one has bought some new audio equipment and her boyfriend (with whom she argues on the phone with at four in the morning) hasn’t been seen in months and I liked it better when he was in there with her as she wasn’t as annoying. Yesterday afternoon I was in my apartment trying to watch a movie when suddenly my apartment was shaking and it wasn’t an earthquake. Just because the radio/cd player CAN go to volumes high enough to shake the building doesn’t mean it SHOULD. I will admit I was a little pissed off that I couldn’t hear my show so I yelled and my apartment stopped shaking.

Now it is four in the morning and normally I would be asleep right now and I’m thinking she just wants to annoy the shit out of me, maybe it’s because back in September said boyfriend came to my door at three in the morning for a cigarette and she thinks I did something with him, I don’t know, but I shouldn’t be able to hear her TV clearly at any time but especially not at FOUR in the morning.

I could complain but management doesn’t care, they have mice living here with us and the owner could care less so why would he care if someone is being loud in the middle of the night. You can get away with pretty much anything in this building;

Neighbors are arguing – okay

Neighbors are killing each other – okay

There is a hallway that everyone calls prostitute lane – seriously


As long as the owner gets his rent on time, he doesn’t care and if by some chance you have a medical emergency, I hope it won’t kill you because you’ll be dead by the time the police and ambulance get here. You’d get to the hospital faster if you walked.

I am so annoyed with this building and the people here, if I could move, I would. Last week I even thought about living with roommates again and I don’t have a good track record with roommates, if you live in Buffalo don’t rent at the apartments by the bridge that leads to another country. I heard management tracks down residents who say bad things about this building, maybe they are one of the six people in this damn city who stalks by blog.

Making money online ; is it possible

You are not going to making a living doing surveys and there is not a survey company out there that will pay you hundreds of dollars a month even though there are those who promise, its a scam, but most do pay and it takes time. Everyone wants a quick way to make money without putting in any effort or time, guess what… isn’t going to happen. I am going to give you the survey companies I use and apps that I use that actually pay, some pay by check, some pay by paypal and almost all of them offer rewards in gift cards…most offer rewards through amazon.

Smart Panel:

Install an app on your smartphones & laptop, keep it there and they will pay you five dollars a month for having the app installed. You have to wait thirty days (after you’ve made ten dollars), they pay via paypal and I have cashed out twice. They also email surveys sometimes and I’ve done a couple of those and received gift cards for amazon. The app takes up little space and its free money, for doing nothing.


This site offers PTC (paid to click), surveys, offers. If you just do their paid to click ads it will take you forever, the money is in their surveys. I have been paid by check (the first time you cashout with them, your only option is a check as they want to verify addresses, after that you can get paid online), they do not offer paypal anymore but they offer tango who has amazon gift cards. I have been paid by this company twice now.


This site offers surveys that fill up quickly so you have to stay on top of your email, I have cashed out with them twice via amazon GC.


This is an app available in the google play store and similar to the smart panel, keep it installed and they pay in points (10 a day) which after time you can cash out via amazon, I’ve cashed out twice with this app. They also offer surveys.

Panel app:

This is another app in the google play store, leave it installed and answer quick surveys to rack up your points (mostly about places you have gone during certain days), you can wait until have enough points for a gift card or check or you can use your points and try to win one. I won a gift card from them and cashed out twice.




Short females complain to much….

I saw a meme on facebook yesterday that I believe came from the whisper app that had me on pause, something about being so short that the sun visor in the car wasn’t any help. Now me being an tall female, who is constantly asked how tall I am every damn time I leave the house, has come to the conclusion females of average or below average height need to take a damn seat some where.

As far as I’m concerned, ya’ll got it made but still find some damn reason to complain. I am sure that you don’t get questions about how tall you are on the daily or have trouble finding clothes long enough. Ya’ll don’t have to spend fifty dollars on pants unless you want too, I am 6’2″ and don’t have a friggin choice unless I don’t want them to fit right or be long enough.

  • If clothes are too long on you, you can get them shortened. If they are too short on me, guess what I’m shit out of luck and I have just wasted my damn time/money.
  • Ya’ll can shop anywhere you want to including online, the only thing I can shop online for is sneakers/shoes.


Ya’ll can sit comfortably in a car, I can’t, I have yet to be in a car where my knees aren’t pushed up against the dashboard & my head not hitting the roof. The sun is in your eyes? go buy a friggin pair of sun glasses and shut the fuck up.

I wish I was tall like you


Okay, we can trade because I would love to leave my house and have one day where I am not stared at like people never seen a tall female before, asked how tall I am and/or do I play basketball. I am all for trading.


You are tall


*Blank stare* Thank you for pointing that out, I had no idea. This statement was completely pointless, and I have no idea how to reply and it’s worse that you are looking at me like I should reply.


If you see me in public and ask me how tall I am, be prepared for the follow up question when I ask how short you are. Let me answer questions right now? 6’2″ and I don’t play basketball. You aren’t tall unless you are 6’0″ or above.


New novel

I have started working on a new novel called Unhappily Ever After


Having a name like Romance should have guaranteed a little bit of good luck, however having the name Dead as a last name cancels out her luck…completely. A thirty-something year old who leaves a trail of broken relationships in her path…..not just her own either.


What do you think? would you read it or is it not your style?

Bored with life & with drama

I am bored with this blog, the site in general and my life to be frank, which is why I haven’t been blogging and why my site hasn’t any visitors (besides from fanlisting owners who come to check that I’ve linked back) and I want to do something about that. I am planning a complete overhall, hopefully to be completed by mid-month or this weekend (depending on if I can’t sleep and have enough coffee in me).

I have reached a point in my life where I am considering stopping communication with certain female people I call friends, I have never had so much drama in my life (in that department anyways) before I moved into this hell hole that they call an apartment building.

The building itself is not worth what the landlord charges for it, they don’t allow pets but that’s okay because the building comes with mice….yes for 600+ you too can have a small studio with everything included + mice. The landlord doesn’t care and will do nothing besides providing traps that don’t catch shit. Besides that I have been here a little over a year and seven people have died since I moved in, I believe the grim reaper is taking up residence here.

Now back to drama, there is this girl that moved in over the summer R and I have a friend N who is hates this girl on the sole fact of …… her man was in R’s face, I don’t have a problem with R at all and I think she is a very nice girl who has been nothing but kind to me. N comes to my apartment every morning and wants to unload drama (talk shit) about R and a mutual friend of ours S and I don’t like drama….I have very few female friends because of this.

I have held my tongue for long enough and next time N mentions R or S in anything drama like I am going to snap.

Needed to vent, Thanks.

Revamp and updates

I haven’t really been working on my site as of late, I am planning on doing a site-wide revamp coming up next month, probably next weekend. I have been sick and in pain, as the weather here in Buffalo has been warm-cold-warm-raining-snow-repeat and it’s messing with my allergies & my arthritis.

Coming in this revamp is new layout/theme, new subpages, ect.

I have moved my linked fanlistings off wordpress and you can find them at

Writers block and life in general

I recently received a letter from social security that my disability case is under review, to my knowledge they haven’t reviewed my case in the past so I suppose I am due but it still scares the crap out of me. At this point disability is my main source of income, I use it to pay my rent and the rest of my monthly bills so getting cut off suddenly is a major problem and scary as hell for me. I haven’t worked since 2007 and frankly being forced to go out and maintain a full time job is just scary, part of my major fear is that having panic attacks (not to be confused with anxiety attacks) in a public setting that I will have to push through and stay in, in order to keep a job is not something I have dealt well with in the past.

I have gotten much better then I was, in the past in 07-08 because of the panic attacks I was faced with on a daily basis left me pretty much house-bound for over a year and I was diagnosed back then with agoraphobia because being around large crowds sent me into freezing up and getting out of the situation quickly. I still don’t do well with large crowds and pretty much avoid concerts and festivals because of it. However I can now go to the grocery store without freaking out, which was near possible for me in that time in my life.

I have things I do to make money online that doesn’t effect my disability and affords me extra money to spend on things such as books and things I like that I can’t afford with my check every month….extra things. I have been looking into working from home in a way where I can get off disability once and for all. So that has taken up much of my free time.

I also have been suffering from a great deal of writers block, I really want to complete a book this year and have been trying to work through my annoyance with not having any ideas.

I am not going to promise to blog more because I don’t keep promises, those who know me well with nod in agreement with this statement.